You know how it's all exciting when you have a new boyfriend, and you go around saying, my new boyfriend this and my new boyfriend that? Yeah. Me not so much either. I don't know if I ever said, "My new boyfriend." In any case, I do have a new ex. Today, as it stands. For the sake of conversation. I do. And that makes him all new again. My new ex this and my new ex that. Ohmigod! Y'know?
So, yesterday the new ex and I are driving somewhere, taking care of unfinished business. Theoretically I am really pissed at him. He's a big weenie. But on a practical every day level, he's just a guy. He looks over at me from the driver seat and says something funny or endearing. Something worthy of a reaction. I feel a smile on the inside but on the outside I can't decide whether to give him even that much. And then I do. Civility is important. At least I think I do. Maybe I should check.
ME: Did I just smile at you?
EX: I don't know. I couldn't tell.
ME: I felt my face move.
And then we are laughing and polar ice caps melt. Dammit. Feels better than the freeze, though.
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you go girl. melting polar ice caps take courage. much, much, courage. perhaps laughing is the kryptonite for courage. anyway you slice it, good on you. xo
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